Baby steps to a better me

I’m half Italian and so I’m going to use that as my excuse for my awful temper. But I’m trying to become a person. Im at a loss as to what do right now..my seething rage is swallowing me whole. Breathe, count to 10, count to a hundred million, bite my fist til I bleed.. What takes this awful feeling away so I imagecan return to my non- homicidal self again?
I’m going to breathe and focus on something else. I’m going to do a picture of Krampus.. Which I only just learned of. December 5th is krampusnacht, when bad kids are hit with rusty chains by a demonic figure.